You are God

You dont wait for a miracle, you create it

I was listening to Alone Again (Naturally), and that line about God and His mercy stuck out to me. I started thinking about how many songs, movies, and people say that, “God have mercy on me.” “God gave me this.” “God took that away.” It’s in everything, all the time. And I think maybe that’s part of why so many people are so depressed and upset all the time.

Because we’ve been taught all our lives that God is this being who gives and takes things whenever He feels like it. Like there’s some guy sitting on a chair somewhere saying, “I’ll give her this, I’ll take that from him, I’ll bless that one, I’ll curse that one.”

But that’s not it. God doesn’t forsake you. Nothing forsakes you. Once we understand that God didn’t give it to you and God didn’t take it from you, that God isn’t a thing that can give or take, everything changes. You realize you’re the one doing the giving and the taking. You’re the one creating, losing, learning, loving. You’re the one deciding what it all means.

And when you see that, you get your power back. Because you don’t have to depend on this invisible being anymore. You start to understand that you are that God too. You’ve always been. That’s the biggest problem I see with Christianity, not faith itself, but the idea that God is some person you have to please or fear.

God’s not some guy up there picking who gets cancer and who wins the football game. He’s not saying, “Let’s take Carol today.” “Let’s have that baby born half-formed.” And then people say, “Well, it’s God’s will,” or “God works in mysterious ways.” No, it’s only mysterious because somebody, a long time ago, told you it was.

God’s not doing weird things to you. Life is. And we have all the tools to deal with that, not to control other people, but to work on ourselves. We decide how we feel. We decide if we’re angry, or sad, or grateful. We decide how much something hurts. We are the deciding factor. We’ve just forgotten that.

Then I think about how people thank God when they win things, like football players thanking God after a touchdown or actors saying, “First of all, I want to thank God” when they win an award. Why? Why are you thanking God? You are the one who did that. You trained. You worked. You showed up. You won the game, you gave the performance. God didn’t throw the pass or memorize the script. You did.

And when bad things happen, and they do, you can go through life thinking some being decided it all if that helps you, but you don’t have to. Things happen. They’re supposed to happen. Everything gets undone when we leave here anyway. All you can do is get through where you are right now, and you can.

No one who’s ever been here has ever really left. That’s the illusion.
You can sit there asking, “Why did God give me emphysema? Why did God make me gay? Why did God take my brother, my family, my dog?” I could do that too. I watched my dog get torn apart right in front of me. But God didn’t do that. It happened. And I learned from it.

Being who I am, a medium, a near-death survivor, I know where everyone is. Nobody’s gone. Not everyone has that peace, and I understand that. But I wish people could see that there isn’t some being controlling every step. You don’t need to live in fear that God’s going to hurt you because of what you did.

Do good things because you want to. Because it feels right. There’s karma, sure, but karma isn’t meant to hurt you. It’s an exchange of experience. Energy balancing itself. Be good because you are good, not because you think heaven’s keeping score. Heaven and hell aren’t places, they’re states of mind. You can be in either one right now, depending on how you see your life.

And yeah, I believe in God. But not as a person. I believe God is everything, all things together. Everything equals God. When we leave here, we go on. Everything we’ve ever lost comes back. Every person, every animal, everything that was destroyed, it’s all still there. Nothing’s ever truly gone.

And you know what’s funny? I never studied any of this. I didn’t even know there was a name for believing that God isn’t a person but everything that exists. Later, I found out it’s called pantheism. It just means that everything together is God, he stars, the dirt, the people, the love, the hurt, all of it. I didn’t learn it from a book; I just started talking this way years ago, and then I found out other people had said the same thing. Isn’t that strange? To know something before you know it’s even a thing?

We’re all like that. All humans. We know things, we just don’t let ourselves remember.
I do, and so can you.